Diary Entries- Friend BIG time fix

Recently, I've been sending lovely emails to my BFF, until she replied- whatever those emails are, dont put my name in them. what kind of friend is that? And i ask you that! As im not allowed to say her 'name' i'll put the inicials in. R.R.S. Shes dead embaressed of her middle name. why? Anyway, she doesnt even TELL me her middle name. Well, yes maybe at school i've been ignoring her a little, like not saying hi. It all started when she dumped me for a new, and popular girl who's going back to her country. So she made a whole scene when she was going so then i would've spilled it. But no, i 'kept it inside the cup.' What i was going about to spill. Just when i thought things would balance, it's like she spilled it for me. Im in her class this year. Again. I've dreamt that im so unlucky my future is nothing. THIS IS NOT MADE UP. And if RRS sees this, wich im keeping totally a secret, im pratically dead. I've got 0% friends. Im a loner. loser, and im not so 'happy' of that. The fake bff is related to india, just saying. I say no further'.